20-11-2011
That's the last time I saw his face
Watching 'Breaking Dawn' with him
Sat beside him
Smell of his perfume
Listened to his bass voice
And it made me feel like I'm the luckiest woman in this world <3

But now...
There's no more left
He went away from my life
Leaving too much memories
Now i'm holding on for nothing
Holding on for those memories he even won't remember
Sang together and looked at each other
Dinner together
Talked like we has already known each other for a long time

Those September and November's memories had killed me slowly
He never know what i'm feeling
He didn't notice it
He didn't know how hard I've trying to forget everything about him
And finally I've realized that I can't
I WON'T
Maybe I'm the most stupid woman who ever trust that falling in love at the first sight is real

</3

When I wake up from the loneliness that wakes me up
I think about their always smiling face which makes me smile without knowing
Like this another person leave sand
When another beautiful season arrives with
The sadness and longing for you which  you left behind
I walk down this street again
Day after day as I live my life
I get teary after I hearing his name
I can't hold it in
I  can't laugh like this
I try calling his name again
With the scar he left in my heart

I try to forget his name although
I bite my lips trying to hold it in my love is only you
I try calling his name again
I live my life pretending nothing has happened
When i'm longing for love with the hurt he has left behind
I start to cry without knowing