Nice weekend

Just back from Sun Plaza with my girls. Yesterday I've ady plan to stay at home today. Daddy's also didn't wanna fetch me there. But Juan told us that he wanna pick us there. What a kind boy :D We arrived there at 3 pm, went to Breeks to had our late lunch. Just ate 3 pieces of Pizza. After that SK asked us to accompany her to saloon. I suggest her Mandyko Saloon. She reserve about 30 minutes before had a haircut. When she had her haircut we went to Glare Ice cream. Waiting for SK for about more than 1 hour. Marga went home first because she'll go to Cemara Abadi this night.. Me with Yul went to bought Takoyaki for her sister. Gosh so many people queued there. I wonder how delicious is that. After bought it we went to saloon to looking for SK, she had done. Guess what, she looks so beautiful.. I like her hairstyle so much lols. Later i'll try to go there to cut my hair. But LATER after my hair long enough to cut :p we went Yulie's home at 5.30. It's tiring but quite fun :)

Why they(boys) always make too many promises when they knew they can't keep it????

A boy will break a girl's heart
But a man will take the pieces :)

If he missed u, he'll call

If he wants u, he'll say it

If not, he isn't worth your time because u're obviously

not worth his

There I was again tonight

forcing laughter, faking smile

same old, tired lonely place

Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes & vacancy

vanished when i saw your face

All i can say is it was enchanting to meet u

Your eyes whispered "Have we met?" across the room your silhoutte

starts to make its way to me

the playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks 

like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet u

all i can say is i was enchanted to meet u

This night is sparkling, don't u let it go

i'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

i'll stand forever wondering if u know

i was enchanted to met u...

The lingering question kept me up 2 a.m

who do u love?

i wonder till i'm wide awake

now i'm passing back & forth

wishing u were at my door

i'd open up & u would say

Hey,it was enchanting to meet u

All i know is i was enchanted to meet u

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends

my thoughts will echo your name until i see u again

these are the words i held back as i was leaving too soon

i was enchanted to meet u

Please don't be in love with someone else

Please don't have somebody waiting on u

Some wishes in this special day

Today's my 19th birthday(in chinese year). Wanna say thanks for mommy & daddy who has ady let me grew up till now. Hope that i'll be more mature in this age. Hope that all of my family & my bestfriend will always happy & healthy. Hope that i can find a better job LOLS :D And also hope that i can find someone who can love me for who I am(and i must love him too). Really wait for that day...

I love u..
It's not that I fell out of love because that is impossible..
I just couldn't handle the heartache </3

U have no idea how hard is it to force myself to stop thinking about u, sometimes

I try to stop thinking about u..

But it just makes me want u even more..

U meet someone...

Get close...

then one of u stop trying...

U talk less..

Memories fade..

And they become someone u 'KNEW' 

Sad right?

Don't promise me the moon or the stars..

Just promise me u'll stay under them with me <3

Real girls aren't perfect

Perfect girls aren't real

Meeting u was a fate..

Becoming your friend was a choice..

But falling in love with you was beyond my control..

Our unforgotable sosiology teacher

Yesterday I just heard that Mr. Fahrizal Lubis has ady passed away. He's my sosiology teacher when I was in the 1st year & 3rd year of Senior High School. He was very kind person, he never got angry although we've made mistake purposely, he let us cheating when he gave us a test, he let us had our breakfast or lunch when it was his period, he never upset although there's no one listen to him while he was teaching & explaining, he always gave us a good mark although we can't pass our test. This time we still can't believe that he've ady gone. He left too much memories in our mind & heart. He's the best sosiology teacher ever in my life...

Goodbye Mr. Fahrizal..
Hope that your soul may rest in peace there..
we'll never forget u & we'll always love u
Sincerely..
Your students <3

The story only I didn't know

You really did forget everything
Seeing how happily you’re greeting me
Only then did I vaguely begin to feel the pain
The wound that had yet to appear on my skin

The tears would not come
Since this farewell didn’t seem significant
Since it felt so inconsequential

A pleasant goodbye ultimately there can be no such thing
If I had known, I would have cried it all out then
At that time, that I was already a part of your ending
Was a story only I didn’t know

So it wasn’t love
It was just a moment which you spent by my side
Now I’m vaguely beginning to understand
Why you could only apologize

I must have been too excited
The very moment you left me, I was expecting you again
How foolish was I?

A pleasant goodbye ultimately there can be no such thing
If I had known, I would have cried it all out then
At that time, that I was already a part of your ending
Was a story only I didn’t know

Because of you

I will not make the same mistakes like you did hm..

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not make the way you did I felt so hard

I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Because of you I'll never stray too far  from a sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me

Because of you,I'm afraid

I lose my way & it's not too long before you point before you point it out

I can't cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm force to fake a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep

I was so young, you should have known

Better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you I'm afraid

Because of you...

Because of you...

About Tommy

The first time I update my blog in the morning..lols..I don't go to office bcause just now there was a heavy rain outside there. Anw, today's Tommy's bday..haha I still remember bout him, last year we knew each other. We've ever closed for a month, but it didn't last in relationship haha..He always remember bout his ex,that's why I don't wanna be with him..I don't wanna be an excuse for him.. After that our relation become sister & brother, i don't know who's the owner of that stupid idea,as I know Tommy's just 19. It means that he's older 1 year than me..Is it important if i called him 'brother' or not? The last time he looking for me was about 6 months ago, he told me not to called him brother anymore because he wants our relation more than just a 'brother&sister' . As I said before, I've never trust his feeling. I know he still remember bout his ex. So I asked him what relation did he want? Guess what..he was speechless.. He can't say anything. I think he was afraid to made a commitment with me. After that conversation, we've never looking for each other anymore..And my conclusion is Tommy's not good enough for me :D

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

The Way You Look at Me

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word


Cause there something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me 


If I could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
Cause baby this is just the way I always wanna feel


I don't know, how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime...

Just came back from hanging out with my girls..But,unfortunately Marga can't join us today, her mom doesn't let her out anymore for this week :( We planned to go to Matador to have some coffee but because of some problem we cancel our plan. At the last,we went to Sun Plaza(again), it's almost 3 PM when we arrived there. I was so hungry because I haven't ate anything since 10 AM -.- We went to nelayan because Yul's craving for pancake durian, but it's too full. No places left for us. Then we went to Pizza Hut & unfortunately it was full too. What a life! Finally we went to Breeks, the only cafe which still left some places for us. We have some spagheti there for late lunch. After that we walk around there till Yul's aunt fetch us at 5 PM :D Today we just made new record, the shortest time at Sun Plaza,only spent 2 hours there..Lols