Sweet & Bit in September

Tomorrow will be the 1st day of September. Do u know? September's my favourite month :D Yeah,because I was born in September & I guess that this September will bring so much happiness for me, I'll enter the college on this 26th. Can't wait for that moment lols. Still remember bout last year's September..which I celebrated my sweet 17th birthday party, it's the most unforgotable moment in my life. September brings too many happiness in my life,including HIM. Someone that still pass in my mind until now. I remember when he said "happy birthday" to me,I was very happy that time. I thought that I'd have everything, but I've never known that he'll go like this. Close about 3 months start from September until November then separate with many memories(in my mind). Last time I chat him first was 5th November, just to say happy birthday. I've already known that he'd never be mine so I start to walked away from his life. Till I decided to remove him from my contact on last March. That's the last time I loved someone deeply. Wherever he is, I always hope that he's alright & having long relation with his girlfriend..

To : Mr.T*****
From : Someone you shouldn't know

Am I wrong if I said "ALL BOYS ARE JUST THE SAME?" 

I <3 it when You...


Give me surprises
Steaal kisses from me
Give me your jacket when I'm cold
Hug me from behind
Act stupid just to make me smile
Stare at my face while I'm not looking
Tell me I'm pretty when I know I'm not
Send me good morning & good night text
Call just to say you love me
Put up a status on facebook ow twitter for me
Share stories to your friend about me
Try to make a love letter
Ask my opinion/permission before doing something
Make me feel I complete you

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't ?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't ?
You fall deeper with each passing day..
But try to hide it in possible way </3

If it's not you, it can't be someone else..

Today, i wander in my memory
I'm passing around on the end of this way
You're still holding me tightly, even though I can't see you anymore
I'm losing my way again
I'm praying to the sky I want to see you & hold you more
that I want to see you & hold you more


It can't be if it's not you
I can't be without you
It's okay if i'm hurt for a day & a year like this
It's fine even if my heart's hurt
Yes because I'm just in love with you


I can't send you away one more time
I can't live without you
It can't be without you
I can't be without you
It's okay if i'm hurt for a day and a year like this
It's fine even my heart's hurts
Yes because I'm just in love with you


My bruised heart is screaming to me to find you
Where are you?
Can't you hear my voice?
To me...
If I live again,
If I'm born over & over again
I can't live without you for a day
You're the only one I will keep
You're the only one I will love
Yes because I'm happy enough if I could be with you 

I already closed the door of my heart for you,but you still always have the spare key to open it

My wishes

I wish that I had NEVER MET YOU..
Then there would be no need to impress you..
No need to want you..
No need for loving you..
No need for crying over you..
No need for heartbreaks..
No need for pain or tears..
No need for forgotten promises..
No need for rejected hugs..
No need for crying myself to sleep..
No need for acting like you care..
NO NEED, for everything you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing..

心跳
Xin Tiao
Heartbeat

想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊
Xiang gen wo chao jia Wo mei na me wu liao
You want to argue with me. I'm not that bored.
不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明
Bu dong de dao qian Wo mei na me cong ming
I don't know how to apologize. I'm not that smart
好想要回到我们的原点
Hao xiang yao hui dao wo men de yuan dian
I really want to go back to where we started from.

你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
Ni you zai ku qi Wo gei bu liao an wei
You are crying again. I can't comforted you.
我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔
Wo you zai yao tou You na me dian hou hui
I'm shaking my head again disapproving of my actions. There's only that much regret.
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
Ai qing de fa zhan yi nan yi hui tou que wu fa wang qian zou
Love's development makes it hard to turn back but I can't go forward.
但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号
Dan shen bu you ji chu xian zai xiong kou Liang ke xin neng sai ji ge wen hao
My body still won't leave because of what is currently in my chest. Two hearts are filled with so many questions.
爱让我们流多少眼泪
Ai rang wo men liu duo shao yan lei

How many tears did love make us shed?

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
Ni de yan shen chong man mei li dai zou de xin tiao
Your eyes are brimming with beauty to carry away my heartbeat.
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
Ni de wen rou ru ci kao jin dai zou wo de xin tiao
In this way, your warmth got near me and carried away my heartbeat.
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
Ni zhuan shi guang dao yi kai shi Neng bu neng gei yi miao
Time has turned back to a beginning. Can you give me a moment?

等着哪一天你也想起
Deng zhe na yi tian ni ye xiang qi
I'm waiting for whatever day when you will also remember
那悬在记忆中的美好
Na xuan zai ji yi zhong de mei hao
That happiness hovering in your memories.

All I want is a man who will :

<3 Stand by me

<3 Fight for me

<3 Support me 

<3 Be honest with me 

Dear crush, I may not show it, but I care about u, alot more than u think <3

I've never had so many uncontroll-able feelings for someone who didn't care with me

Dear broken heart girls, let your past make you BETTER, not BITTER

Dear girls, it's better to let go of something than hold on to nothing 

On diet now!

Can't believe that i've gained my weight ! Perut gw makin buncit lah,bukannya tumbuh ke atas,malah ke depan polak -.- Mw balik gym tp ga ada waktu lagi,senin sampe jumat kerja,masa gym cuman sabtu aja? Gym mpe tua mah ga ada hasil jugal -.- Gw kira setelah kerja bakal kurusan,rupanya malah gendutan ckckck. Mulai besok diet lah gw, kalo ga badan gw bisa hancur berantakan ene

Undescribeable Feelings

I don't know why everytime he chat me,I felt like my heartbeat isn't in their way. I know in his eyes,i would never exist,but i still hoping for a miracle..A miracle which can bring me to his deepest heart..I don't know where it started to fall,all I knew is he is important enough for me. We've known each other for a year. But theres no step  I've made to bring this into relationship. There's no way for us to be together, that's why i've decided to keep single till i really find someone who can win my heart & replace him..I hope he'll never know what i feel & we'll always live like this..as brother & sister :)

One Year Later...

It feels like I've been dreaming for a long time
I've wandered & wandered around for a while
As if we made a promise
Standing here in front of each other like that day from
four seasons ago
Those beautiful stories that we wrote down together
Those eternal promises that we prayed for at that time
They're all coming back to me now & I don't think my heart
can take it
I've even restrained myself at the thought of u
How has your one year been...


For a long time, I've been living, having forgotten of u
For a while, I thought I was doing fine
However I started to realize it as time passed by
That I am nothing without u
At that time, if only we knew how we would be right now
I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets
So I've had to just repress them 
One year has passed like that


Could your feelings perhaps be the same as mine?
Will u give me another chance?
I know that we can never apart from each other
The one person I love & love again


I wish we can go back to our first days
To the beautiful, happy & loving days
Those heart-breaking stories & vain arguments
Just bury all of that now
And promise that we don't take them out again
No matter how many seasons pass & how many years go by 
I hope that we won't meet like today again 

Girls Language

• If I don't call u, i'm just waiting u too call me first
• When I'm mad & I walk away from u, Follow me,please?
• When I push & hit u,grab me & don't let go
• When I ignore u give me your attention
• When I say I hate u, say I love u
• When I say it's cold, hug me tight
• When I tickle u, tickle me back
• When I stare at u, I want a kiss
• When I started to cry, tell me I can cry on your shoulders
• When I give up, tell me u won't let go 

I'm not a good lover..
I mess up..
I get jealous easily..
I'm too much sensitive..
When it comes to my love & I get mad often
But there's one thing I do love about myself..

I DON'T PLAY !!!

Someday...
    Somehow...
        No one knows ~

• U'll miss me like I did
• U'll need me like I did
• U'll cry for me like I did
• U'll hug me like I did
• U'll love me like I did
• But I won't love u anymore </3

I can't promise u a perfect relationship..

but what can I promise u is that if u are trying,i'm staying <3

It is sweet to kiss the rain...

Where the rain is so hard that the only thing we can see is each other 

To someone outside there...


Your presence to me was once my greatest pleasure...

but now, the memories of u will be my greatest treasure </3

I don't care if u don't like me...

I wasn't put on this Earth to please u :)

A guy that can accept your flaws, love you unconditionally, kiss you on your worse&call you beautiful no matter what is a guy worth loving

It's fvckin hard to find a new job!

Gosh!Susah banget mw pindah kerja,ga da yg pas. smlm" sii Jacq ada nawarin lowongan di Piaget jd teacher assistant,gw awalnya sii uda semangat banget,tp ternyata interview nya pake english sama mandarin..what a life! English sama mandarin gw pas"an polak tuu..parah la. Katanya sii gpp,soalnya cuman ngajar anak SD gitu aja,trus salary nya juga oke lah,tapi jauh x dr hum gw kesana,udah tuu jam 7 dh harus masuk kerja.Bayangin aja,org jam 7 ru buka mata gw malah uda kerja.Plg nya sii jam 4 sore gitu,tapi gw bingung kalo ntar gw uda kul mw naeq apa k unpri..Bus kah?Itu jugak kalo ada..Becak kah?gaji gw smua mah habis ke ongkos..ckckc.Pusing lah kalo udah soal kerjaan.Trus si Albert blg sama gw kalo mw lamar di bank gitu minimal harus D-1,but semalam gw baru chat sama operational manager Panin bank yg di jakarta,katanya fresh graduate juga bisa asal kinerja kt bagus aja..Yg mana seh yg bener?? Kata org nya klo mw lamar mending ntar siap lebaran aja,kalo skrg lamar mah sia" yg ada lamaran gw dibuang -.- Ntar siap lebaran gw baru coba lamar aja lah di bank,but the problem is GW BLM DAPAT IJAZAH ! Mana ada bank yg mw nerima lamaran tanpa selembar ijazah sialan gitu?ckckckckc Apes lah nasibku

Complicated again

Semalam gw ru dgr dr fera kalo trnyata liburan gitu gaji kt ga jalan punya..ishh..WTH! Bos na pelid kali,pantes lah org" informasi sblm gw smua mengundurkan diri,mana ada krja yg kayak gitu punya..Sekarang gw lg planning bt nyari job baru,pengennya sih kerja di bank ato kantor gitu..karir pun lebih terjamin.Juan suruh gw lamar di Alfa Scorpii,tp nyokap ga kasi.Katanya aso kerja sana,ntar ce su(bener jg sih). Trus gw rencana mw lamar di permata bank ato bank" yg lagi berkembang gitu,nyokap blg ga usa dulu,ntar cari ku" aja biar dikasih masuk BII,ku" aja masi di SG,cemana lah nasibku...Denger cerita mereka soal gaji yg nunggak" punya pun uda males,sisa 2bulan lagi training gw habis then after that there's no more CASH SALARY. gaji semua pake transfer tapi lewat 10 hari gitu baru ditransfer -.- WHAT A LIFE !

(F)ight for you

(R)espect you

(I)nvolve you

(E)ncourage you

(N)eed you

(D)eserve you

(S)ave you

Sometimes God doesn't give what you think you want.Not because you don't deserve it,but because you deserve more

If a girl ever steals your man,there's no better revenge than letting her keep him.REAL MEN can't be stolen

Live without pretending, love without depending, listen without defending, speak without offending

Girls are great in faking smile.Guys are great in faking love

It's hard when u finally realize that the one u actualy trusted was also the one lying to u the whole time

Last day with Tommy :)

Hari ini Tommy bakal flight k aussie bt study abroad..Semalam kt ngumpul bareng sama dy buat terakhir kali,just spent a whole day at D'Loft then played bowling with them..Sedi banget rasanya buat lepasin dy,apalagi dy temen yg paling norak habis di class kt :( But,we've captured some for our memories

Safe flight Aming..we'll always love u..we'll always miss u here..Our friendshipp will longlast forever :')

Super busy&complicated day

Hari yg sibuk plus pek chek banget -.- bayangin aja,td gw izin jam 2 dr kantor buat k dokter THT,waktu disana dokter na masukin alat yg kurus n panjang gt k hidung,telinga n tenggorokan gw.Waktu masuk ke tenggorokan gw rasanya sakit bgt -.- stlh d'cek katanya sii gpp,cmn d'suruh ga boleh minum es n mkn gorengan..Jam 2.30 gw  langsung buru" balek ke kantor lagi buat ujian windows m word.Untungnya soalnya ga gitu susah,jadi bentar aja uda siap.Tapi teori word nya itu lohhh,ribet banget.Nilai gw aja baru 70..ckckck.Tapi yasudahlah,daripada ga lulus LOLS.Trus tadi Sir Indra Boy tb" minta pin gw,yah ga gw kasi lah,takut ntar diteror sama dy -.- Gw boong kalo gw ga BB On. Org nya agresif kali,suka godain cewe" gt..ga banget deh pokoknya.Moga" besok dy ga ngotot lah minta pin gw,kalo minta lagi bisa mampus gw -.-

SK's birthday surprise

Yesterday is an amazing day..Our mission of making surprise for SK to celebrate her b'day was successful..Here is some of yesterday's captured :)

Hope next year we can make surprise party for her again..HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY,SILVIA KOSUMO..have a great birthday and longlast with ur boyfie..

Tons of love for u,babe :*